29th Birthday... happiness!

happy, happy, happy!

2011 - a new beginning

It's 3:23am and I have a flight tomorrow. I should be asleep by now but for some reason, my mind is just everywhere. I am grateful to God for everything. It has been a great year so far. Yes, there were hurtful things that happened, but it had to so I can grow personally and emotionally. It was an obstacle that is now part of the past, but has made me stronger. I am grateful to my parents for giving me the opportunity to focus on something that I have longed for. I am grateful to my brother for the unconditional support. I am grateful to my friends for listening and giving me advices. It has been a great year, indeed. And so, now it begins - the reality as they call it. I have to leave the past in the past, and move on to the great things ahead of me. I am excited and scared. I am saddened because I am to leave my second home. I would really love to move here, but I'm not sure if this is for me. Maybe, it is an option after I accomplish at least my 2011 goal - we'll see. For now, it's a new beginning, and I can't wait. Live life, love life!

finally happy!

done and over with! and everyone was right... thanks to all my true friends! can't ask for anything else... ;) 

guilty

guilty as charged. I honestly do not think I have a poker face.. I tried to be very transparent. If I like you, I like you. If not, then so be it. But in this world, it cannot be just black and white, lots of grey areas.... and so that's where the problem begins... 


I'm guilty as charged - I have a secret that I'm dying to divulge but I can't. A secret that I just want to be done and over with, but with my family's advice, to not to to avoid further awkwardness... and i shall oblige. oh well! 

why oh why?

i've waited for so long, but there was no word. finally, i had to accept and move on and now you want to revisit and discuss. I don't want to expect anything,  because i no longer want to be disappointed. please stop playing this game with me. 

How can I be ok?

I pondered numerous time on how I can move on... but I can't seem to find a way. I'm so frustrated, disappointed on how it currently is, and I'm trying my hardest to be ok... I'm NOT ok! I'm NOT ok! I'm trying but I'm currently not..... how can I be if I know I can be at a much better place.. I can't take it anymore... stress is taking its toll.. so difficult! everyday, you have to smile but I HATE WHAT I'M DOING! WHAT IS STRESSFUL??? ummm, the unknown factor... oh well! 

Super Excited!

After a roller coaster ride these past few months, I am very happy to receive some god news - and this time, it is for myself! It is going to be challenging, but I know I can do it if I just give my all. I made the best and worst decisions ever (actually within 6 days!), but I've learned from these.

Please pray for me as I embark on this new journey! Wish me luck ;) live life. love life! ;)