How can I be ok?

I pondered numerous time on how I can move on... but I can't seem to find a way. I'm so frustrated, disappointed on how it currently is, and I'm trying my hardest to be ok... I'm NOT ok! I'm NOT ok! I'm trying but I'm currently not..... how can I be if I know I can be at a much better place.. I can't take it anymore... stress is taking its toll.. so difficult! everyday, you have to smile but I HATE WHAT I'M DOING! WHAT IS STRESSFUL??? ummm, the unknown factor... oh well! 

Super Excited!

After a roller coaster ride these past few months, I am very happy to receive some god news - and this time, it is for myself! It is going to be challenging, but I know I can do it if I just give my all. I made the best and worst decisions ever (actually within 6 days!), but I've learned from these.

Please pray for me as I embark on this new journey! Wish me luck ;) live life. love life! ;)

going, going, gone!

This is one of the most difficult blog I have to write. Tears have been plenty and I'm trying my hardest to move forward. But, please do not ask me questions or even talk about it. Feelings of disappointments just keep resurfacing. Please do not talk to me as if I didn't give my all cause I did, and at my own demise. Just please let me find myself and happiness again... as you continue to make a fool of me ;)