How can I be ok?

I pondered numerous time on how I can move on... but I can't seem to find a way. I'm so frustrated, disappointed on how it currently is, and I'm trying my hardest to be ok... I'm NOT ok! I'm NOT ok! I'm trying but I'm currently not..... how can I be if I know I can be at a much better place.. I can't take it anymore... stress is taking its toll.. so difficult! everyday, you have to smile but I HATE WHAT I'M DOING! WHAT IS STRESSFUL??? ummm, the unknown factor... oh well!